What to do, what to do?

I will finally be getting a little raise for next year-- an extra 100K won/month. Wish I could say it'll all go toward bills, when I still need as much as I can for food throughout the month. But you know what else I want some freaking money for? Traveling. It's Buddha's birthday today, so we have the day off. Obviously a Tuesday off doesn't help, but for example Dylan pointed out Japan is close enough for a weekend trip. I've always wanted to see the lanterns set off over the water, but why do it in Korea when I like Thailand more & that's a much more observing Buddhist country than Korea? I still want to go to Cambodia, & recently was thinking it'd be better to do it from here, not just because it's much closer, but also because I can hopefully recover a little faster from the inevitable return to eating rice.

Which brings me to my future plans in Europe. It seems that the best, plus freest, & most programs offered in English, are in Germany. I've never been there, never wanted to go. Jason hated it, & for some reasons I could see bothering me. I'm still friends with a great who couchsurfed with me from there, but I've also matched with a few on tinder & they have the conversational skills of styrofoam. They're about as humorous as it too, from what I can tell. I'm tired of being in countries I don't like. I'm tired of those being the only option. I'm tired of the idea that I can't travel more because it'd mean having a fuck of a time eating or breaking out massively again. As I've said too, I've found that each successive breakout is more & more difficult for me to recover from, especially when the air's shitty.

Ozgur, the guy I couchsurfed with in Turkey, I still think about him. & how retardedly easy dating would be there if I was ready & wanted to date again. Plus I still have to get certified to teach in the US, which is a massive gamble due to healthcare which I'm less & less comfortable with taking.

I've got a friend I can go see in Sri Lanka. I could plan in advance & try to pay for airfare during a holiday here to somewhere in Asia. I'm always thinking of Thailand, even though living there wouldn't work out for so many reasons. I have to get my resume straightened out so I can start applying for remote jobs, but doing what? I can't really find anything part time, am wary of doing freelance taxes in the US while here, & how to transition that to full time when I'm in the US, especially when remote jobs don't really offer benefits (though some people claim some do)? Do I just keep paying the same toward my loans & try to travel more, though I don't see being able to afford that with only an extra 100k/month? Do I stay another TWO years so that my pension is about $10,000, instead of just $7500? Could I mentally handle another 2 years? Is it worth it?

God, & joining a gym IF I could find one open when I'd ideally use it, & could get a trainer to help me get good & progress with squats, for example? That'd be great.

Thoughts? Should I just deal with shitty skin & whatever unseen damage the food is doing to my system & travel? Plus the mad expense I probably couldn't really handle anyway? Go to a European country that I might prefer, even if their MA programs don't have the same reputation as Germany's? How do I navigate the practicum back in the US without healthcare & income, or not enough? Stay here for more money once I leave?