I have a "real" post coming up, but I had another head-exploding episode here as I watched a video on what N Koreans (who defected) think of S Korea. & what amazed me is how much ignorance & stereotypes they face here. I GUESS on the one hand I kinda get it, but...
They spoke to a man & a woman, & both said that, of course, S Koreans think N Koreans are all poor (though hell, *I* was always taught that too), & so look down on them.
The man said middle & high school students are shocked that they speak the same language (!!!!?), & the woman said a kid asked her what reunification is-- he'd never heard of it & his parents never taught him anything (though my memory is that maybe the kid was young, like 5, so that I could understand).
&, then, my favorite: a N Korean woman was going to meet her fiance's parents for the first time, & the FIRST question she was asked is, "Are you a spy?" Of course, this is pretty insulting, but insulting & super personal questions or statements for us in the West are par for the course here. In fact, what I've now been hearing is that, for Koreans particularly, they think it's very normal & necessary to continually state the obvious. This is usually aimed at telling people that they're fat, for example, or that I have blue eyes... but that's a different discussion for a different time. My main objection to this question is, do they HONESTLY think if a person IS a spy that they'll fucking TELL them?! But it's a commonly-asked question for them, & I can't think of a stupider one. "Are you a N Korean spy?" "Yes, yes I am." Because they don't do sarcasm here, though, the only time they'd get a yes is if they asked me, because your asinine question deserves such an answer. (Side note: I'm teaching my students how to ask questions or give negative responses because they never know to use "to do." We practiced asking "Do you/Are you" questions so they could practice distinguishing, & I answered yes to being Batman, God, and Jesus.)
Sadly though, the N Koreans guy thinks that while he definitely wants reunification, he said now is not the time, it can't be until S Koreans learn a lot more about N Korea, because otherwise the cultural clash would be so great, particularly S Koreans to N, that it would probably tear Korea apart.
I ask AGAIN, WTF do they teach them in school???
Friday, January 13, 2017
Saturday, January 7, 2017
Aging in a loop
First, my rosacea has/had been pretty severe for a good 3
weeks. The antibiotic stopped working at about that point, which didn’t really
surprise me, since my body’s pretty quick to adjust to them when it comes to my
skin. The fact that the other dermatologist wouldn’t change anything about his
prescription regimen led me to see if there were any other Western derms in
Seoul. I had to wait til this week to go because I had no money, but since I’m
seeing Aaron tomorrow I wanted to see what I could do at home to combat it for
the week while I waited to see the new doc.
So this week, I reverted back to no wheat and no dairy, then
added in avoiding/reducing most of the rosacea triggers, which are:
- · Extreme hot & cold (so wearing a mask outside, and keeping apartment at my comfy-to-me more tropical temps)
- · Hot liquids (still drink hot water, but wait for it to cool a bit)
- · Spicy foods (so that, plus the wheat means cooking everything for myself again, because, Korea)
- · Alcohol
- · Intense exercise
I’m still drinking coffee, but only 3 cups/week, which is my
norm anyway.
In addition to that, I’ve been doing yin yoga and meditation
for stress and anxiety in place of my workouts. I’ve also been, as other
sufferers have suggested, been drinking apple cider vinegar with the mother (a
protein that is only in unstrained/unprocessed vinegars, which also meant
stopping the antibiotic which would kill any benefit from it), using OIL to
wash my face to help prevent dryness, consuming about 2 tbsp of turmeric/day
because it’s an anti-inflammatory, AND eating raw ginger, skin and all, about
the size of ½ an egg. And I guess unsurprisingly it’s working. Really rather
well.
I’m still in something of a pickle because I just drop all
triggers at once, so I’m not sure what’s really effective and what are really
my triggers and which are not (though my prior experiment with coffee and
alcohol seemed to indicate that they weren’t big triggers for me, if triggers
at all). One suspicion I have that has been especially helpful is not working
out. I usually do around 20 minutes of HIIT/day, followed by a HIIT yoga
routine (if you can believe it) Tues & Thurs, otherwise followed by normal
stretching yoga the other days. While I’ve always known that exercise is
supposed to be a trigger, its benefits always made me kind of take that with a
grain of salt. In addition, I want to keep as much muscle as I can/add on
when I can. On top of that, my parents have been aging pretty badly, and
exercise is one way to really help cut my risk of meeting their fates. I can’t
help but wonder if the reduction of pimple-like stuff (which
hurt a lot, actually, especially when on the base of my nostril, mouth, or
chin, where they’re pretty common), the reduction of red color both on what’s
left of the stuff on my chin and where it was appearing on either side of my
nostrils (and the more common rosacea) is due to the not working out. As you
can imagine, this is a biiiiiig problem for me, given my devotion to exercise.
I actually think weightlifting is less intense than the HIIT, but that requires
paying for a gym, which I’m especially hesitant to do now since my most recent
adventure in indigence.
This will now plague and stress me out, because I want to go
back to my old routine, plus I need to, otherwise I’ll start having trouble
sleeping. I’ve been making small gains in how many jumping lunges I can do
before I start slowing down, for example. I’m fairly certain that yes, my
looking not-quite-39-almost-40 is due to genetics but also exercise (even my
students are super surprised that I’m as “old” as I am). I think it was
probably a big help in keeping my weight from going nuts when I was hypothyroid
and we hadn’t figured out the right level I needed (a place I seem to have
returned to here in Korea—Korea FUCKS with the health of most expats. Several
posts/week are from expats saying, “I’ve never had skin/health problems before,
but since I got to Korea, I have ___ problem,” which is met by the seasoned
expats who say oh yeah, Korea always does this, that, and another to, pretty
much everything). AND I realized this year, especially thanks to Jason’s
suggestion, that it helps manage my anxiety. So, something’s gotta give. I am
considering maybe more tabata vs the high intensity portion of HIIT (which
usually includes lots of plyometric moves). But basically, if it makes your
skin flush, it’s going to worsen it. (This is also why my eyes are super
bloodshot after working out—rosacea affects the eyes as well.)
In the meantime, today’s visit has me wondering, because
what I have has been often called acne rosacea, even though it’s not acne. Or
so they say. Thankfully, this doc listened to me when I said no more antibiotics,
since over my lifetime I’ve tried almost all. And given that Hashimoto’s is
linked to gut permeability and “leaky gut” and overall not-awesome-gut health,
I’d just as soon not kill off anymore good bacteria there. He did call the chin
stuff acne, and then asked if I was on birth control/planning on getting
pregnant. Huh, that’s funny, I thought, the last time a derm asked me that I
was 20 and they gave me the FINAL nail in the 8-year-long hell of my severe
acne coffin: Accutane, or extremely high doses of vitamin A. And sure enough,
he told me that Accutane is what he’s going to prescribe me. Once again,
things in Korea are really different, because in the US that was 1 pill,
whereas here, the first 4 days I’m taking 6 pills twice/day, and then 3
twice/day until I see him again next week.
This also can kind of brings me to the aging in a loop
title: while I’m back on meds I was on when I was 20, I have lots of pills
divided into the little plastic/wax bags, which is how half the pharmacies
dispense medication. Here, for example, is about one month's supply of my thyroid meds:
Here is my current skin regimen, which makes me think of the
daily plastic dispensers seniors use in the US to organize their multiple
pills. I’m old enough to warrant a handful of pills every day, except that they’re
the same drugs from my youth.
This dr. visit was also blessedly cheaper than the other
doc. I was relieved that his sheepish comment that the first visit is always
“expensive” meant about 75,000-100,000 won, which includes a blood test to test
liver and kidney function, etc. Of course, now that I’m hypERthyroid, I’m
curious what THAT does to blood tests. (Likely no one remembers, but when I was
first diagnosed with hypo by my general doc, she said I have hypothyroidism, no
explanation as to what it was, that I was going to be taking medication for it
for the rest of my life… and oh yeah, despite my being 2-3 weeks away from my
first trip to South Africa and wine country there, she said the blood work also
showed I had liver problems, so no drinking or painkillers for the next month. Oh
and my cholesterol was super high. Given I was in the midst of my P90X phase
and basically in the best shape of my life, still on that diet, I was A
LITTTTTTLE freaked out and upset, and determined to die rather than not drink
wine in South Africa. Only to research everything and find that hypothyroidism
also ratchets up your cholesterol and gives the APPEARANCE of liver and kidney
problems/disease, rather than actually causing it or you having it.)
Interestingly, if my racing heart rate wasn’t confirmation that the 250 mcg
dosage of thyroid meds was too much, I am now experiencing the somewhat
advantageous hyperthyroid effect on my period. Monday and Tuesday I had the
kind of cramps I usually get on the first day of my period. Monday was the
worst. This is around the time my period came the last couple of months
(apparently my cycle is synching with someone’s at work, because normally mine
is the end of the month). But no period. I’ve been worried about whether or not
it would come in time for Saturday when I see Aaron. But while hypothyroidism
gives you super heavy periods (mine was so heavy once I thought despite being
celibate I must have been pregnant somehow and had a miscarriage until I looked
it up), hyperthyroid means super light periods or not having one at all. Which
appears to be my fate this month. This thyroid shit is REALLY good times, kids.
I can’t recommend fucking with it if your genetics won’t so you can enjoy all
this enough. No matter what happens, you have to wonder if your thyroid levels
are off again because anything and everything gets pulled in symptom-wise. Am I
tired because I’m not getting enough sleep, or is it hypoth. Fatigue? Am I
depressed because I am prone to it, or is it my thyroid? Am I gaining weight
because I’m not being as careful with my diet, or is it my thyroid? Headaches?
Periods? Fitness setbacks? Hair loss? Cholesterol? You name it, thyroid issues
can be behind all this and more!
We’ll see where this new rabbit hole of drugs and
interesting new toner takes us. Will keep you mercilessly as updated as I am.
Heh.
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
Typical
I didn’t bring my computer to work because I have 6 classes
in a row, my long day, no break time ‘til 8 PM. But unlike last night, I’m in
the mood to write. So I’m on one of the work computers, which we all have to
share, so I can’t be on this that long.
In my mission to bring my rosacea under control, I have gone
full paleo (except peanuts. I am still eating peanut M&Ms). This is an
enormous undertaking in Asia, and Korea in particular, due to the ubiquity of
wheat, which no one expects here, and of course rice. I read on Quora about a
Chinese guy who was talking about readjusting to China after years in the W,
& he commented on how terribly unhealthy Chinese food is: really high in
fat and carbs, and very low protein. Substitute really high fat for somewhat fattening
occasionally & spicy, minus the prevalence of vegetables, & you’ve got
Korean cuisine. Oh yeah, plus smelly (can we talk about people bringing dried
seafood/kimchi on the train? It reeks. Why can there not be laws about this?).
ANYHOO, I’ve decided to go full paleo. I’ve only had rice twice in about 10
days, have twice baked paleo goods on the weekends, but the true evidence that
you’ve gone full-bore is making your own bone broth. Supposedly Koreans have
been consuming this regularly—hell, I even bought a bag labeled beef bone broth
at Lotte Mart, though it was milky white and really had no flavor.
In real, true, paleo form, the above bone broth was made
with nonpesticide chicken (the best I can do here), & organic produce. I
had a cup after I got home yesterday, and it was great. Then the not-so-great
part happened: I put the Tupperware full of bone broth on the edge of the
kitchen sink… and somehow knocked it, spilling my slow-cooked-for-26-hours
broth almost completely down the drain.
While upset & swearing up a storm and cursing Korea
& life for a good 10 minutes, it wasn’t accompanied by my full-on screaming.
So this qualifies as a somewhat tempered, calmer reaction from me. I wondered
why that was, ‘til I realized while washing the dishes what would have resulted
in the usual screaming and a tirade that would have lasted at least 15 minutes:
the chicken broth went down the drain, instead of spilling all over the floor,
so I’d have had to clean it up on top of losing it all. The ONE upside is that
I had another non-pesticide chicken carcass in the fridge, and given the teensy
size of my fridge and especially my freezer, it would have been impossible for
me to freeze half of it (Aaron is particularly amused by my basically not
having a freezer, because believe it or not, the frost wall got BIGGER, mainly
in the back, so I couldn’t even fit my fist in the back), & storing both at
the same time takes up 1/2 my refrigerator. So, there’s that.
There’s also my usual penurious state at the end of the
month. I never go out because I’m always cooking, eating, and frequently
bitching, so where was my money going? It was going to Lotte Mart, the most
expensive place to grocery shop (but it’s the thing closest to me &
one-stop shopping), and I’ve been buying organic stuff whenever they have it. My
bank account & I jointly determined that I would have to start going to 1
of the fruit & veggie places sprinkled closer to and on my way to work for
produce, and try going to some of the butchers I’ve seen as well.
So in that spirit, I’ve gone that route, & stopped in a
butcher shop across the street from work. The guy was SO nice, & the bonus
was that, while I spent the same amount for the pork neck there as I would for
the same thing @ Lotte Mart, I got 2-3 times the servings from his that I’d get
from Lotte Mart.
I also found a woman with a stand down the street from me in
the back, & there are 2 mom-&-pop type grocery stores I go to too,
which are both cheaper. So, there are options. I did also stumble upon a completely
organic place, but can’t tell if it’s a co-op or not.
Since it’s the end of the month, I’m counting every damned
won($) because I have 60,000 to get me through this week. Saturday I went to
the nice butcher guy near work for some more pork neck, but he recommended some
other cut of pork. Then, he started indicating a thing of the pork neck. I
wasn’t sure if he meant I should get it too, or he was giving it to me. I
finally acquiesced, since I was pretty sure he meant it was a gift, but could
afford if it not, & thankfully, yes, it was free. I was JUST delighted
& SO happy, particularly since I needed the free meat! So of course that
guy has got a customer for [my] life [here].
So it has now been 2 weeks since I’ve done strict paleo, but
it coincided with my getting sick, so I skipped my workouts. And
wonder-of-wonders, look at the difference. I started feeling a little better,
so did some short HIIT workouts, & naturally, my chin started getting a bit
red & there were the faintest shadows of what I know would be the bumps. My
last real option for exercise that is rosacea-approved is swimming. Anna, the
head teacher at my school, swims every morning, so I’ll ask her where to go.
I know I'm WAYYYYY behind, sorry kids. With the start of the new school year, but honestly? Going paleo in Korea and having to cook EVERYTHING I eat, having to stop at the store to refill on veggies that I run out of even faster now means there's just no time left for much of anything. Like blogging.
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